From Adlivan (demos)

by Apricot Blush

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I've spilled out onto the freeway, again.
3 times per day.
i will hold them in my mouth forever
you can keep the shelter, for wind and rain.

keep quiet, brushing teeth, compassing memories, cutting leave.
hollowing bone, hollowing trees, birthing, counting, smiling to sleep.

these are demos from the upcoming album. i'm sorry if this makes you cry, i didn't mean to. recorded at Pablo, mixed by wesley.


released June 30, 2017



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Apricot Blush Greenville, South Carolina

Apricot Blush is a surreal, indie folk project including

Jackson Wise,

Sydney Sokoloff,
Mike Robbins,
Grant Wolken,
Jonah Terry,
Dan Fetterolf,
Wesley Heaton,
Rivers Farmer,
Brandon Gallagher,
Luke Waldrop,
Sydney Albertson,
i don't know anymore
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Track Name: the place where your stomach is supposed to be
cutting paper in the old home -
is it too late to hold on?
is it dark until the sun?
will i have your hand until she slips through?
covered in red like anew -
singing to nothing but you -

but all in all we're just filling up the holes

have you had enough of this dream?
do you know the world like you say you do?
if its hard to be sober, don't tell me you love me
like you do

all in all we're just filling up the holes

don't forget to breath as she wakes up
Track Name: childbirth, counting
a mending cusp works as you sleep
quietly covering eyes - skin will break youth
in the dark you'll birth a light
small, soft and a lone she g o e s

one day you'll feel it all.

split the face with a cold stone wire
blinding the sun, she's drinking fire
to blind out the whales, she waits
to find out the self, she hates

crying knives as she bled out -
gathering dirt and disgust from the eel house
i'll comb her hair until the dreads out
streaming the flesh out of bones she g o e s

one day you'll finally see
one day you'll have a baby
Track Name: baro (trauma)
put your hands around my throat
do you feel the end? light as snow
take a breath, deep and slow
make it last - here we go

i'm out of my mind, i'm out of my way to find you
i'm out of breath, i'm out of my depth without you

i watched the surgery, they cut her up.
i watched her bleed in and out
i combed her hair, soft and blind.
did you feel the bones - yours in mine?

not too tough, not too kind.
rest assured, you'll be fine