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Apricot Blush (ST)

by Apricot Blush

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1.
why don't we castrate the bodies and procreate the seas? why do you expect me to talk when you know i don't have teeth? We are only eating flowers, can we please go back to bed? We can speak through our lips but we breath between our legs you are an elegy to be analyzed instead of providing a shelter for the glory boys in bed we are animals in nature but there is no excuse for this - we are so much more than semen, we are a pure abyss did you? forget to turn the lights off?
2.
rebirth 03:28
this body lies, i need to shelter. i'm an old forgotten wood, i need to protect her the newspaper screams until we cant speak at night i need a release from this body so i can kill - the second me and finally die when it's all said and done, we can grow daisies in debris
3.
antlers 03:18
I am afraid that you’ll cut my head off And glue it to the ceiling. Last night I threw up on the freeway Don’t act surprised when you realize this is a fabricated scene When there are pieces of windows in my throat I’ll be happy When thousands of people drive by and feel disgust From my body – I will all spill out on the pavement Please disregard me I’m just following my dreams I’m so happy You can keep these scars for as long as you need it And you can keep my heart God knows you need it I’m happy I SWEAR for tomorrow is not coming! And neither will I ever again! I choose to be happy, I choose to be upset We sin, we lie, we make our nests I want to be a star, I want to be the best, I’m so happy
4.
stuck in my head like a rapture of greed - stuck in me. i come in threes. i come in threes. like you know, i get old x3 leave me be with my prozac dreams because i've got a fever of 103
5.
tell me no human is perfect - i want control. i want control. i don't want to want anything. la la la la la, everythings cool. la la la la la, everythings fine. i don't want to see, here's my knife - will you cut into me so i can live in the night? i am so lonely by my side. if only the museum was closed i could sleep at night.
6.
ignore me 03:34
are you coming? can i stop now are you coming? is it too late to take it back i don't want any part of this anymore, i am disgust, i am nothing.
7.
prelude 01:33
fighting nature was the worst decision i've ever made. worse than tying nooses, worse than loving you a second time. and, for all those days i felt like shit for my own make i had nothing to blame except these dreams where i wake up in a can surrounded by faulty skin and a man who would do anything to save, is he me? a man who tear the skin off anyone else except himself, please stop these dreams.
8.
i cut into me on the behalf of people living lifeless i grabbed his empty skull and bashed his fucking head into thousands of people (lifes own fruit) i am (disgust) (wake up) we are the light - we are the skull.
9.
one day i will finally be a home. i'll never have to worry again about what others think of me. i want to be a cloud i don't want to be me. i will be a house of brick eventually. this is the day when i will stop thinking about them and finally build my own home. this is the day when i will realize this body is a temple and finally build my home.
10.

about

This is a conceptual album about the journey (or attempts) into celibacy along with the struggles that come along with that. After being sexually assaulted, i thought the best way to recover would be to get "sober" from sexual activities. I tried and lapsed and wrote and tried and lapsed and wrote until the hot flashes stopped.

The lyrical content is true to its original purpose excluding the song "antlers" and "bad, bad dream" which are based on very obscure dreams i've had recently. It's mainly focused on the trials of being a young adult with a high sex drive and trying to fight that nature in order to grow further in my relationship with a higher power. This branched off into different topics such as the idea that we (as humans) are not as far into evolution as we thought we were, and how several aspects of human life are still primal. We should not view ourselves as some godly creatures who are so much higher than other animals. The writing process for this album was very therapeutic and i achieved my goal of maintaining a healthy view regarding sex and self esteem toward the end of finishing the album.

thank so, so very much to everyone who listens to this and supports us.

Jackson Wise - singing saw, vox, drums, guitar, bass
Syd Sokoloff - Vox on tracks 1, 3, 5, and 6.
Mike Robbins - guitar on tracks 5 and 6.
Grant Wolken - guitar on track 10.

Thank you to Westley and Dan for letting me borrow their drums, thanks @blaxix for helping with the album art, thank you Duncan for forgetting about your recording device, shoutout to Jake, jonah, kirsten, val, molly, gluten girl, Mike, ashlyn, the strawberry boy, and everyone else who supported this project.

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released December 9, 2016

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Apricot Blush Greenville, South Carolina

Post-Folk from SC

Jackson Wise,
Jonah Terry,
Dan Fetterolf,
Wesley Heaton,
Rivers Farmer,
Brandon Gallagher,
Luke Waldrop,
Sydney Albertson, and
Tayler Bucich.

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